Lots of Attacks, Same Old

Getting alot of attacks and they become more malice as time goes by. I put headphones on to protect my ears to a degree but they are instructing to just attack attack attack me when they are on. Torture device was very loud this morning.

Found another item with poisoning in it today, been having to take alot of pain medication to help with the pain. Again as my handler is a person that doesn’t understand right from wrong, is just doing exactly what they tell him to do. I cannot ignore such irresponsibility. If actions are just designed to hurt me what choice do i have but to defend myself?

Update 6am

Getting hurt alot, over and over again. The handler keeps doing a thunking in the left ear. The thunking for those that don’t know is a bug on the ear drum that drops a hammer creating a loud thunk. i can say that this has been over a hundred times on the same eardrum and it hurts bad. I’m forced to defend myself.

Update Monday 11pm

Looks like I’m a five again and I am am in just shock that they did this. Gotten woken up with a torture device that was loud – twice. The thunks are unbearable, as the torture. And I haven’t done anything. Not one thing! In fact, I took alot of abuse on Sunday when I took back a poisoned cigarette tobacco and got called gay a few times, lied to, and alot of hub-bub, and insults. Took it all, treated them good, and smiled the whole way through.

Update Tuesday 3:15am

Getting tortured real bad now. Haven’t done anything.

Update Tuesday 7:52am

Getting attacked all the time now. I’m guessing about 15 to 30 times every couple of minutes. Alot of thunks on my ears. My ear is hurting so bad now that every click is cause me to scream. Attack on breathing happens for the slightest relaxation, when I scream in pain I’m attacked again.

Update Wednesday 6:30am

Was attack alot for 3 straight hours early in the morning and my ears arn’t doing so good now. I’m wondering if the guy knows the code or is just pushing the button enough times to try and look like it. Alot of times I couldn’t make sense of it. Must have had that button pushed several hundred times in that three hours. Tried to talk good to him, told him “How you treat people is how you think others are going to treat you” and other encouraging thoughts. But he was ruthless. Got attacked for basic single letters and numbers and plenty out of context things. Really got attacked bad. Went outside a couple times and yelled a few times when I got hurt bad.

Sorry to anyone I woke up.

This is very very embarrassing at three in the morning.

Update Wed. 9pm

Drugged Again

Update Wed. 1:30pm

I became a 5 today! Thank-you ladies. You are so very very awesome. Just knowing people are out there that want to make this world a better place helps me very very much. Unfortunately this culture doesn’t seem to like people that are trying to do good. The torture device was turned up considerable when i became a five and had me-yelling a good couple dozen times the first couple hours. Also a couple-homesexuals were sent after me.

Got another guy that doesn’t understand right from wrong. Talked to him alot of times to get him to understand and it just gets me hurt. I try to tell him the right thing and how treating people good is a good thing but I think he must be too scared and without-morality is just doing it as often as he can to get his freedom back. Thanks again.

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