As Bad as Ever

The torture device isn’t louder now but it is ALOT more painful – my ear has never hurt this bad… This guy I feel really sorry for. I’ve talked to him and judged his reactions and he is complete incapable to understanding humanity. He is very reactionary and spiteful, only capable of doing what he’s told to do, lives in constant fear. Searchlight grabbed a guy looking for a desperate salvation, using him, threatening him, for their own self-serving purposes. I’ve been getting hurt for just about everything I touch, every time I take a drag of a cigarette, any minimal amount of breathing aberation, and alot of times for nothing at all. He keeps working on the same ear and my right ear is not doing good. I got to think that this guy must be in an incredible amount of pain. What he is going to have to go through in life to understand some semblance of it is at the time incomprehensible. How could they do this to someone? Most of the time I’d be mad (and I am) but, right now, I just can’t help feeling sorry for the dude. The kind of people that can do this tells me alot about Searchlight and their detachment. But don’t get me wrong, the same rule applies and I hope someday they can learn it: treat people bad, don’t expect good results. Always the right thing and I’m going right through the middle of it.