Took alot of pain, dealt with it pretty good

The constant torture device turned down today, the first sign of improvement in awhile. For whoever did this, I have a great deal of gratitude for you. Thank you.

How this week has gone:

On Wednesday night beginning at ten pm, everytime I went outside and smoked a cigarette I’d get a loud thunk in the ears every time I took a puff. I took the pain the first time outside, the next time my ears hurt so bad (at 10:30pm) every thunk had me yelling in pain so that the whole neighborhood could hear it. I feel bad about this, believe me I tried my best.

A couple kids were across the street and the gay one began taunting me, replying with a mocking yell. I looked at him and he diverted every time I did. The kids were out there all night and got taunted again by the gay guy the second time outside for every scream. I just took the pain the rest of the night and had to fight at every puff, but didn’t yell. ‘Dexter’ began to ask me questions on the fourth time outside up till now I’d taken it all, laughed it off. He said things like ‘hey red’, and ‘can I get a cigarette’. After a couple more remarks, I asked him “No offense but I just want to be left alone.” or something like that. Nothing rude but telling that I was on the edge of a breaking point. Of course he didn’t and asked a couple more proding questions. I ignored the first two but by the third one I exploded and began going after him. I told him to come here and he cowered into the house. One of the kids that lives in the house jumped out and defended him. I was almost mad enough to go through him. We yelled a bit and the whole conversation ended when I asked him why he defended him.

Not sure these kids were part of the Searchlight plan but I think they were.

Some of the things that have happened since:

• On Thursday the torture device was left on louder than on Tuesday and for no reason from anything on Wednesday.
• Got real bad thunks on the ears on Thursday and Friday and then (I guess) because my breathing was strained, I’d get hit again.
• Making things up. Not only is he doing the code that they tell him to attack for but he’s making things up as well. I have no possibility to be able to defend against it. Washing hands, going the bathroom, grabbing headphones, typing 0, refrigerator door, and on and on and on.
• The guy didn’t know all the code still and I got hurts dozens and dozens of time for the wrong code.
• Pushing the torture device as a response. A good number of times I’ll say something and no code will be there but get attacked because (I’m guessing) he just doesn’t want to hear it. Also getting attacked when I give him advice.
• This is actually from last week so it doesn’t go here, but they got a type of hand glue that is difficult to get off. Been trying to get it off for two weeks now using every chemical I can think of (detergent,gas,paint thinner,drano…). They put it on my electric-shaver in the bathroom.

I’ve been good to this guy. I’ve helped him out with alot of code and when he’s hurt me alot for the most part I’ve been able to hold it together. SL, I don’t feel responsible for this. I can’t be held responsible for your irresponsibility. And with little law to protect me and only getting by with the help of very very good people, I have to defend myself. You have a problem with me telling people that I’m getting hurt, you know how to fix it.